Man I am feeling really funky and flat. Yesterday I grumbled around, was anxious, nervous and felt pretty hopeless. I have way too much time on my hands right now. I keep hoping on a job to come through but it just isnt happening. The economy is so bad right now and no one wants to lose their job and here I am walking out and quitting because I was having a bad day. I cant take back my decision nor do I want to go back but I still wish I could find a freaking job somewhere. Between the extra time on my hands, my meds being out of whack and feeling depressed things are OK...i dont know if my worry comes from not having money or if it is because I feel so non productive right now. I keep reaching out for things to improve myself. So much so that I have my hand in quite alot of pots right now. I am working on my food issues, working on my step work, I am trying to get back in2 therapy and then there is Astara...a teaching program based on spirituality.

I am hoping for a better day today. I am suppose to have a lunch date today but I am not too sure if I want to go. It feels like I am going through the motions but the desire to date is just not there. The guy is really nice and perhaps I am missing out on a good thing but fact still remains that I dont feel like going. I have been doing the constant dating thing for months now and it is pretty evident that I am not going to meet anyone through the medium I am using. I know I have alot of issues but for the most part my life is good and I am happy but these guys are issue packed. I dont need anyone elses baggage today. Maybe thats wrong of me...I dont know.....

 

Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning and for taking away the pain in  my mouth with my tooth. Watch over me and my family today and keep all of us safe. Please help me to find a job...Lord give me the willingness to give of myself and to be available to all who need your direction and huidance, Please help me to be more openminded and less grouchy when it comes to the kids......Thank you Lord/////

 

 

Hi Elyse!

Love the blog post. So true!

I was also wondering which code you used for your Playlist... I'm trying to get one on my blog and I can't find the right code. If you can help, please do! Thanks!

-Meg/GilmoreGirl1188