"We are not human beings going through a temporary spiritual experience;We are spiritual beings going through a temporary human experience"
Long time, no see! 
Come visit me some time, eh? 
Anyway, have a good weekend; hope to see you posting again soon. 
It's Monday, Dec. 17/07, 7:27AM. I'm dropping by to wish you a great day and to invite you over to the Tree for Manic Monday - it's a Redux! Hope to see you soon! It's Monday, Dec. 10/07, 9:28AM. I'm dropping by to wish you a great week, and to invite you over for a few smiles - cuz today is Manic Monday. 
It's Monday, Dec. 3/07, 6:19AM. Just popping by to wish you a great day and to let you know Manic Monday is ready for you! It's Tuesday, Nov. 27, 7:24AM. Just popping by to see how you're doing. Have a great day. Today is Monday, Nov. 5, 2007, 8:34am. I'm just dropping by to wish you a great day, and to let you know Manic Monday is up. Just popping in to wish you a great Tuesday, and to let you know a new Halloween story has been posted at my place. Hope to hear from you! Just popping in to wish you a great Monday. Drop on by the Tree and check out today's edition of Manic Monday - it just might make you smile. Today is Saturday, Oct. 13, 2007, 9:39am. I just want you to know you're never far from my thoughts... Just popping by to wish you a great weekend and to let you know I'm reading, even if I'm not posting... Just dropping by to let you know I'm up and running again, if you feel like dropping by. Hope you're doing okay... 
Today seems to be alot more stable that the last week or so. I had a mini breakdown yesterday. I get those...I get so wound up with my OCD and other mental health issues that I hit a level of either complete shut down or extreme overload to the point that I feel literally insane. I hit that insanity wall yesterday.
I had missed a dose of my psych meds and had only taken a small dose the day before so I was feeling very overwhelmed, nervous and obsessive/Compulsive. I felt as if I was going to explode mentally and emotionally...I was on the edge of sanity and complete mental breakdown.
Its not the first time I have felt that way. I seem to go in spurts. I will do very well for a while...months on end actually....and then I get worked up over something or rather someone and I find myself crumbling emotionally. I hit the height of this imaginary wall and I either explode or I fall to pieces. Lucky for me that at the very moment I was starting to go over the edge I had a therapy session.
I shared the overwhelming stuff and I also took a couple of anxiety pills along with the meds I had missed. By the time everything was said and done I was feeling much better.
I have had several instances of going over the bend and it is not fun. I get very angry when I do. I feel crazy, violent and hurtful. I want to cause pain and hurt the people in my life who hurt me. There is no talking to me at that point. I am a time bomb that has already exploded.
I am very tired today as a result of my OCD and having to take the meds to chill me out but I am feeling better. I don't feel so obsessive and compulsive today. I have some balance and I am very grateful for that. I had gotten so far away from myself and my beliefs that I lost focus. I have to be honest and say that I still feel like acting out in some ways but without the person to do that with I will slowly fall back into the right frame of mind.
CJ and I arent communicating right now and I dont know if we will or not. I have made the decision to not pursue it..........I know, I know...yea!! for me!!
Namaste~
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