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Nick: Hey girl! Just wanted to drop by and say hi.
Weigh to Go!: Friday, May 2, 2008, 9:55PM: Hi Elyse! Long time, no see! Come visit me some time, eh?
Korner: hi there
Bits & Pieces: care to exchange link? just let me know so I can add your link to my blog. tnx
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Saturday, Mar. 8/08. Just thought i would drop by to see what's new. You haven't posted for quite awhile, so... Anyway, have a good weekend; hope to see you posting again soon.
LWM: Holly just found out her mom died a few months back, no one told her. If you get a chance how about stopping by for a word or two, I m sure she could use a few kind words right now
Meg/GilmoreGirl1188: Elyse,Hi! Where have you been? When you come back on to Bravenet, please remember that I got a new blog under a different username: GilmoreGirl1188. Click on my name and it will lead you to the site! Thanks!
Kris: Hi Elyse! Happy Belated Valentine's Day!
Kris: Hi Elyse, coming to check up on you. Take care.
The Canuck: Hi Elyse. It's Saturday, Feb. 3/08, 10:22AM. I'm just dropping in to see what's new. Hope you're okay...
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Thursday, Jan. 31/08, 9:05PM. I'm just dropping by to see what's new. Have a good weekend...
Holly: Morning, Elyse. It's Monday, Jan. 28/08 and I'm just dropping by to wish you a good week. If you want, come on by and check out Manic Monday; you might get a kick out of it. :)
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Saturday, Jan. 26/08. Just dropping in to see what's new. :)
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Thursday, Jan. 23/08 and I'm just dropping by to see what's new and wish you a great day and a great weekend. Hope to hear from you soon.
Kris: Hi Elyse, dropping by to say hello! Keep your head up girl!
Holly: Hi Elyse. Just checking in to see what's new. Manic Monday was put up this morning, if you're at all interested in dropping by. :)
Nick: Hey girl! Haven't spoken with you in awhile and wanted to drop by and let you know I was thinking about you, my friend. I'm just in the aerly stages of finally quitting smoking and it's been quite a ride so far. Take care, my friend.
Surfrbelle: I can relate to a lot of what you have gone through. I'm going through a horrible nightmare right now.
Holly: Good morning, Elyse. It's Monday, Jan. 7, 2008, 6:54AM. I'm just dropping by to wish you a great day and a great week.
Kris: Hi Elyse, dropping in to wish you Happy New Year!!
GK: hello...care to exchange link?if so let me know so I can add your link to my blog..tnx
Holly: Morning, Elyse. :) It's Wednesday, Dec. 19/07, 6:40 AM. I'm just dropping by to wish you a great day and to let you know I'm thinking about you. :)
Holly: Good morning, Elyse! It's Monday, Dec. 17/07, 7:27AM. I'm dropping by to wish you a great day and to invite you over to the Tree for Manic Monday - it's a Redux! Hope to see you soon!
Holly: Hi Elyse It's Monday, Dec. 10/07, 9:28AM. I'm dropping by to wish you a great week, and to invite you over for a few smiles - cuz today is Manic Monday.
genewade013: very nice journal
Holly: Morning, my friend. It's Monday, Dec. 3/07, 6:19AM. Just popping by to wish you a great day and to let you know Manic Monday is ready for you!
Raquel: Hi there, care to exchange links?
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Tuesday, Nov. 27, 7:24AM. Just popping by to see how you're doing. Have a great day.
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Saturday, Nov. 17/07, 6:59AM. Just popping in to wish you a good weekend.
Kris: Hi Elyse, stopping in to catch up on you. I'll talk to you again soon!
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse, Thank you for your wonderful comment. You are an honest and wise person; thank you for your advice and kindness!
Holly: Morning, Elyse. :) Today is Monday, Nov. 12, 8:08AM. I hope you have a great day and a great week - and if you want some chuckles, come on by my place. It's Manic Monday!
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse,How are you? I wanted to wish you a wonderful weekend. Please feel free to stop by and check out my blog!
Holly: Elyse... Please don't go through with it... PLEASE, my friend... I don't get a good feeling about this...
Holly: Hi Elyse. It's Wednesday, Nov. 7, 2007, 7:58AM. Just popping in to wish you a great day; hope to hear from you soon.
Holly: Hi Elyse Today is Monday, Nov. 5, 2007, 8:34am. I'm just dropping by to wish you a great day, and to let you know Manic Monday is up.
Holly: Hi Elyse. Just popping in to wish you a great Tuesday, and to let you know a new Halloween story has been posted at my place. Hope to hear from you!
Holly: Hi Elyse. Just popping in to wish you a great Monday.
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse,The reason why the system rejected your posts is because I have to "approve" the comments before appearance on the site! I received the comments, thank you! You left wonderful advice and insight. Thank you, Elyse! You are an inspiration.
Holly: Hi Elyse Just popping in to wish you a great Monday. Drop on by the Tree and check out today's edition of Manic Monday - it just might make you smile.
Holly: Hi Elyse Today is Saturday, Oct. 13, 2007, 9:39am. I just want you to know you're never far from my thoughts...
Kris: Hi Elyse, I've been away for a while, so I'll have to read back to catch up, but I wanted to say Hello! and I hope your weekend is wonderful!
Holly: Hi Elyse. Just popping by to wish you a great weekend and to let you know I'm reading, even if I'm not posting...
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse, Hi! How are you? I have updated my blog; feel free to check out my posts!
Holly: Hi Elyse. Just dropping by to let you know I'm up and running again, if you feel like dropping by. Hope you're doing okay...
Vivianight: Hi Elyse, just winging by to say hello. Sorry I've not been by much to comment, life has been quite, hmm, busy of late. Cheers,
Kris: Hi Elyse, just stopping in to catch up on you and to say hello!
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse, I have missed you too! We do need to stay in touch! Thank you! I have subscribed to your journal and will look at your blog often!
Megan/Horselvr1188: Elyse,I have not heard from you in a while. I have made a new blog. Please click on my name for the link to my new blog. Thanks!
Dauphine: Hi Blog hopping. How are you? You got a nice blog here and interesting entries. Would you care to exchange links? Take care and God Bless!
heather: I can realte to your emotions, I have several health issues. Letting you know your not alone. Feel free to check out my website and if you'd like my blog...http://nightdreamer371.bravejournal.com

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Thursday, October 4th 2007

02:15:58 PM

Uncomfortably Numb

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I can honestly say there is nothing there. Its all so numb and void of emotion now. It feels strange to not feel anything at all. I have been so consumed for so long and now there is nothing left. I had hoped ya know?? For what I have no idea but I still had hoped. Maybe for a connection to remain and maybe there is one at one end or another but not here. Not inside of me.

Its so strange not feeling that drive or motivation to be seen and heard. Always looking for that one word or phrase to encourage me. Its flat now. There is no excitement anymore. I have to admit there are moments of real anger. Actually maybe me being numb is just a side affect of the anger. My feelings are void because I am mellowing out after so much hurt and anger. I find as the days pass I waiver between apathy and extreme rage. I want to say Screw it all.....If you cant be what I want you to be then F.. U!!

I have to take into account that I am sick right now and I get super emotional when I am ill. I dont do it well at all. I get depressed when I am sick because I feel limited. I need to go lay down..I am not making much sense. I have not slept for more than 4 hours a night in 2 or 3 months now...Sleep deprivation can screw with your head too......

 

Namaste~

 

 

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