I dont have any clue what to write about but I havent posted in a bit so I thought I should at least check in. 

Life right now is so flat. I have no energy or motivation to do a thing. I am having some health problems directly related to my weight problem. I am just tired.I have lost my ummppphhhh and I cant sleep worth a damn!! Arrgggg.....Can I complain a bit more please?? LOL

I have taken a break from everything I have been working on  bettering the inner me. I skipped therapy for 2 weeks and I havent been to a meeting in 2 weeks which spells the big DANGER word for me. I dont know, I just dont want to be around any people. Ya know, funny thing really.....my personality profile has me as an ENFJ....Extroverted...Intuitive...Feeeling....Judging.....but I dont feel like much of an extrovert on most days. My astro sign says that Virgo's are keen introverts and rarely enjoy the company of others for very long. We are the type of people who jump into the best friend mode and then lose interest pretty quickly. Its not because we dislike the person but we feel when we have exposed ourselves then everything that was needed to be said, has and it is time to move on.

Most of the time I like to be left alone. I have my core family unit and a one or two people that I talk to but rarely want to see. My life is plain, ordinary and uneventful. I like it like that. I dont like to be overwhelmed and when I feel that way I shut down. Usually, when I feel that way, I immediately get sick.

I do exhibit some extroverted tendencies. When I am around a large group, I am a social butterfly. I am rarely not the center of attention. I know everyone and everyone likes me but that is because I show them what they want to see. I morph into their personality type and relate to them. I would like to say that it is a gift but it can hurt me at the same time. I tend to get confused because I cant remember who I need to be for each person. Ya know, I say that but I do truly feel I express alot of self expression and individuality which conflicts with what I just said.

So right now, I am emotionless and overly emotional at the same time. I have shut down but when things are brought up, I get emotional. I feel flat and I lack passion about anything right now.

We will see where it goes...........

Namaste~